I've been poking at this entry for a few weeks now, and I keep not changing it. I'm not really happy with it, but I think at this point it's just time to post it ( Read more... )

Looking back, there are two rather important things I left out of the Really Long entry...self-esteem and my need to *affect* people.

( A bit more emo than usual )

So I've been working on trying to get at the control levers for my emotion-based decision making...and I'm coming to see that what's got them significantly captured is a combination of fear and rage ( Read more... )

So I've been thinking a lot about emotion-based decision-making and how it has manifested with me. ( And I think it comes down to Wanting. )

This post will make perfect sense to some of you...if you're not in that group, don't sweat it.

So I'm hearing second and third-hand that some of y'all are pretty pissed at me, but haven't actually said anything.

While I deeply appreciate you not jumping my shit earlier, when I was in no fit state for dealing with it, I've now reached a point ( Read more... )

Some twenty-mumble years ago, I was first introduced to the book "Please Understand Me," and with it, the Keirsey Temperament Sorter (the Reader's Digest Condensed version of the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator). I read the book and took the test (INTX), and was astonished at the accuracy and insightfulness of the results. (In fact, if you've not ( Read more... )

I just wanted to take a moment to thank everyone who responded to my last substantive post. I should have done this weeks ago, but well...the inside of my head is a somewhat confused place right now. I read and thought about every last one of your comments, and am deeply appreciative that y'all care enough to spend the time and effort to respond ( Read more... )

When I was very much younger (and shorter) than I am now, I had issues with emotional control. Nothing particularly over the top, but some definite issues. So, somewhere in early adolesence, I learned how to suppress my emotions, and I learned the fine art of lying to myself about how I felt about things. I told myself I was okay with a lot of ( Read more... )